MY Story continues
Hope springs forth!
Jeremiah 31:3New International Version (NIV)
3 The Lord appeared to us in the past, saying: “I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.”
Psalm 147:11 New International Version (NIV) “ the Lord delights in those who fear him, who put their hope in his unfailing love.”
I was invited to attend a program called ‘Search for Significance’ at our Church. God touched my life in a mighty way. On the last night of the program, I felt a pain in my heart like someone had stabbed me and was turning the blade. I rushed outside to the safety of my car. “Father I can’t take any more, I’ve been hurt once so much, would you even hurt me again?” Through weeping and sobbing from deep inside I cried out, “Please heal me, Lord.”
My car seemed filled with the Presence of God, like liquid Love so powerful, so gentle so warm, the tears stopped and I felt like I was being bathed in His wonderful Presence and Love. The pain was gone – and I was free! I wanted to shout out to every woman who’d walked this pathway, “You can be healed! You can be free!” That was the beginning of a new journey for me.
Since then my heart has ached and longed to touch so many men and women with this incredible love that is a balm on their lives. I want see children and teens who have been abused freed from the pain and shame that so often keeps them bound. There is healing, wonderful healing and freedom in Jesus. He never intended that we should carry these hurts that so define our lives. Until we are healed, we reflect our pain back on all around us; we take offense, and hurt others.
Do I remember those painful incidents of my youth? Yes, but without the pain; they are just scars and shadows of the past, they can no longer inflict wounds. It was then that God reminded me He would cause my life to be a door of hope for many. My passion is to share and touch many lives with the Love and Healing that has comes to me through my Door of Hope, Jesus.
God lead me to some very special Scriptures that brought such blessing and comfort into my life. His Word is the strength of our lives. So He brought me from the wilderness of my loss and pain “leaning on my beloved’. Yes I learned to learn on and trust Him and His Word fully.
“Behold, I have indelibly printed (tattooed a picture of) you on the palm of each of my hands; your walls are continually before me” (Isaiah 49:16 Amplified Bible)
SONG OF SOLOMON 8 :5 (Amplified Bible) “Who is this coming up from the wilderness Leaning upon her beloved?” Some versions say ‘desert’.
As a teen, I saw God through the eyes of an abused child, expecting punishment and retribution, but through His amazing Love and Grace, He opened a door of Hope to me. I had seen a father figure (the person who raped me was old enough to be my father) as someone who hurt and wounded me and stole my childhood. God offered me love and a promise to never leave me alone. Father God lead me to HOPE I hungered for more of Jesus. I had met my Daddy God and later on I was privileged to meet with one of those who had hurt me so much and there I forgave him and released him to find forgiveness. Later he passed on knowing he was going to his eternal Lord. He had found forgiveness.
Through my blogs and newsletter I will share more of my life and in particular, the healing that Jesus has promised for the broken hearted the wounded, and the hurting. I hope you too will keep in touch through this page and find the Hope that comes from our eternal Father God through Jesus on the Cross of Calvary.